[I feel you.]
I'm a city dweller just tryin’ to grow a garden, a yoga teacher just tryin’ to buy a new car, a modern woman interested in the trappings of secular life. But beyond that, even more interested in transcending consciousness with desperate feelings of running away to Nature. I am an eternal optimist with a healthy dose of cynicism. I have a quick tongue and a dirty mouth. And just as much as I love to speak God’s many names, I also enjoy expletives. I am a feisty lady but I feel fiercely. I feel everything. And all the time. And the biggest feel of all is about the feat of enlightenment(bliss) within this complex human existence. We aren't in a secluded setting of an ascetic’s cave, we are busy urbanites with fragile egos and sugar addictions. Damn it's hard to be a human. We have these strange bodies that breathe and consume, cry and laugh, live and die. And then there are relationships so varied and strained that even thinking of these dramas is exhausting. Being human is not for the weak hearted.
We wake up everyday wandering in wonder. We are starving for authenticity in our lives. The life our highest self remembers. We are thirsty for connection and to be heard. We want relationships that are deep and reciprocal. We are crying out to be healed and for our purpose(Dharma) to finally reveal itself. We want this existence to be worth a damn. We are all doing the best we can. We are trying our hardest to wake up and to understand what this whole thing is about. We chose this extreme existence. There is medicine that cures and kills. There is corruption and community. There are funerals and birthdays. There are families and orphans. There is starvation and obesity. There is making love, and making art, and making war. There is infinite joy and deep wells of sadness. So within this intense incarnation in which we feel vast and infinite and finite and naive, we grasp to make sense of it. We are developing within these dichotomies. We are atoms presently breathing and perceiving, hoping and loving, waking up and ascending.
Its too beautiful for words.
Every bit of this madness I trust came together right now in this very moment perfectly. Your soul and my soul and the soul on the couch next to you or in the car behind you- we all made the decision to dance here together in this moment. We are here to occupy this same conscious wave of sentience.
We are all here to teach each other, help each other, support each other, challenge each other and help each other wake up. I am so thankful for your experience being a human. I am grateful because without all the beauty and tragedy that is your life, mine wouldn't be so. I thank you for your presence so we get to reflect our human-ness back onto each other. Keep it up, I know its hard but we are in this together. Trust the process, lean in, its going to be OK.
Here is one of my favorite quotes I feel accurately sums up the point of this existential tangent:
Tips for when being a human is hard and confusing:
1.. Write a list of gratitudes. This can be short or long, simple or complex, prayers or practical.
2. Drink some water. You know you’re thirsty.
3. Put your hands on your chest, close your eyes and feel your heartbeat. A cadence that will remind you anytime, anywhere that you are a miracle.
4. Go outside. Take your shoes off. Put your feet on the Earth. Just do it. This will ground any excess energy and invite a sense of calm as you stand with the elements.
5. This is my new favorite thing. And probably yours soon too. Enjoy!